wispfox

Transition states are evil, as anyone reading me knows. Unfortunately, my tolerance for one such in my life has just abruptly informed me that it needs to change _now_. No, really, now.

However, I'm also severely depressed (as in desperately wanting to cancel all my plans for the next week, even though there is no jasra this weekend and being alone when this depressed is unwise). And my timeout for time between seeing australian_joe just started being problematic (it takes another couple months before I fail to cope with that). And my fucking wrists are evil (but healing). And everything I do for self-distraction _still_ needs happy wrists. And I can't fill out my damned visa application, nor can I take another class next semester.

So I'm waiting until I'm a bit less depressed (or at least until a few more days have passed and I'm certain it's not a temporary failure of cope) before figuring out what I can do about said transition state (since anything that anyone else could do is not something that should be forced. And I don't know how any such would happen, with me not coping this much, and not be forced).

But. Severely depressed. Also snappy and intensely irritable. And moody, shifting between wanting to cry and wanting to kick things (interesting; that used to be 'throw my lacrosse ball against a wall really hard'; fuckin' wrists) rather absurdly rapidly (probably simultaneous, actually). Avoiding interacting with me is suggested.